All Of Everything, Erased.

this is the window where
i watched the future start
my pupils dilated
the shock sped up my arms
i shut my ambushed eyes
and turned my face towards the heat

i felt the city choke
i heard the world at war
i prayed for providence
god said, "don't pray no more
you went and made your mess
now keep your blame off my feet"

so i got off my knees
i faced the devil's day
the sky was murder red
the streets were headstone gray
a flaming ferris wheel
spun where the sun used to be

i watched its buckets dip and dance
i saw a couple making love lock hands
they were pushing for abandon and the answers it could bring
90 million miles from the graveyard growing over everything

i saw my lover chased
through fields of sugarcane
she clutched her belly close
and whispered, "keep us safe"
they ground her down to dust
no more miracles today

i dreamt myself awake
in a resort hotel
above a golden coast
beside my Southern belle
we heard the sea reborn
in each singing shell

and every coughing car
and every coiled snake
and every shrieking star
and every burning stake
dissolved to atmosphere
all of everything, erased

i spread into a distant hum
i droned along with everyone
and the earth grew green and nursed herself to what she used to be
all our senseless shouting calmed to quiet in her ancient memory

and oh!, what a joy,
to be free.

Hey kid, looking for god? Then stay away from the church

"I do not feel obliged to believe that the same God who has endowed us with sense, reason, and intellect has intended us to forgo their use"- Galileo Galilei









There is not enough love and kindness in the world to give any of it away to imaginary beings.
I am against religion because it teaches us to be satisfied with not understanding the world.

4/24/2009

I need to leave for work in about 5 minutes.
I just really felt the need to type up a blog, I haven't in so long.
Barely even had access to a computer.

I moved out, now live in Old Louisville right off the UofL campus.
I love it down here, other than the occasional bum asking for change or a cigarette, it's really nice.
I've been looking for a second job, but keep coming back home empty handed.
I don't really need a second job to live, but it'll make living a hell of a lot easier.
Especially this month, money is tight, it just takes some getting use to, my new budget that is.
I'm sure things will settle down soon.

I've noticed inspiration sometimes comes in strange ways, and it's been coming to me more and more often lately.
I signed up for college, and start in August. I have orientation soon, other than that all I have to do is schedule my classes. I'm proud of myself.

It's nice to finally feel like things are falling into place, but sometimes I still have this uneasy feeling in my stomach, it's a little different each time, sometimes even completely unrelated to the prior incident.

Dammit, I should of already left for work.
Show tomorrow, then coming back home to celebrate whatever there will be to celebrate.