Deli markets with their flower stands
Pretty girls and the burning men
Hanging out on the hooks next to the window displays
And I took out my tongue twice removed from my face
Across a bridge and across the mountains
Threw a nickel in the fountain
To save my soul from all these troubled times
And all the drugs that I don't have the guts to take to soothe my mind
so I'm always sober
Always aching,
always heading towards occult figurines
And wasted gas-station attendants
Attending to their jobs
And a nice drive in the country
Finds a nice cliff to drop off
Oh when this life just gets so grating
All the grittiness of life
But don't take those pills your boyfriend gave you
You're too wonderful to die

And the last one tore a picture
From the pornographic page
But all the pleasure points attacking
All the looks of love were staged
And its a lie that you've been giving
It just hurts you everyday
So why should I lay here alone
When its just too far away
From anything we could call love
Any love worth living for
So I'll sleep out in the gutter
You can sleep here on the floor
And when I wake up in the morning
I won't forget to lock the door
Because with a match that's mean and some gasoline
You won't see me anymore

Sometimes I think I'm more alone in my head than I am in real life.

A rant to someone who wont read it.

(I really wasn't intending on making my return to this site a bitch/rant fest.
But I really just to to vent.
So, here we go...)

So tonight at work, after an unwanted (on my part) talk about religion. I was told that "it's a shame" I don't believe in anything

Really? A shame?
The definition of shame (thanks to dictionary.com) is as follows:

the painful feeling arising from the consciousness of something dishonorable, improper, ridiculous, etc., done by oneself or another.


So me having an opinion is dishonorable, improper, and ridiculous?
I didn't try to say you were wrong, or persuade you to think like me.
I just stated what I thought, and tried to drop the subject.

You thinking your opinion is better than mine is dishonorable to me, aren't you bible thumpers supposed to 'love thy neighbor as thyself?' and don't you believe everyone is one of 'god's children' or some other crap like that?
If all you people follow the bible the way you say you do, you wouldn't think you're better than everyone else. You wouldn't feel superior to those who don't believe.

If everyone thought the way you did, then we, as a society, would not of made it this far.
It was the thinkers that changed the world, not the people who blindly followed what someone else has written down.
So if anything,
It's a shame you cant accept that someone has a difference of opinion.
Don't be so goddamn close minded.

An explaination of sorts.

I haven't been on lately because my computer is dead. Yes, again.
I've been using my roommates computer lately until I can figure out whats wrong with mine (I think I have it about fixed) it just feels weird typing my thoughts on someone else's computer.
So I haven't been writing a lot lately, which has really been getting to me, I'm not going to post anything important or interesting in here today, to be honest I have a lot to say, but not a lot of time to put it all down, since I am limited on my computer usage.

I have had an interesting time away from this blog, and although I can't get my thoughts together at this time to write about a certain thing, I just felt weird going awhile without writing in this. I don't know how many people read this thing as it is, to be honest I wouldn't care if it was 1 person or 100 people, but just to let you know I'm still here.

So I guess I'll put something more interesting here soon.

Thanks
-Josh