Georgia.

This is probably one of the most personal songs I've written.
It's also the first, in a long time, that I've written it entirely (music and all) in one sitting.
It's short, simple, and acoustic.




I am the push that helps you leave
The sad excuse for the hole in your sleeve
Where your broken heart use to stay

I am the page in a book filled with memories you'd like to keep
The sips you stole from your mother's wine to help you fall asleep
The note you wrote to a friend to show that you still care
and proof that every open door doesn't have to lead anywhere

You don't know who you are
You don't know where to go
But as long as you remember where you've been
I think you'll be alright

I'm the pillow still wet from your daughter's tears
Your awkward goodbye and irrational fears
Of failure and being left behind
I am the new life you hope you'll find.

You don't know who you are
You don't know where to go
But as long as you remember where you've been
I think you'll be alright
God, I hope you'll be alright.

and you're the note I wait to read
To show that you still care

Let's sweep up the fucking streets

“Yeah, I slam them every night because in no way, shape or form do I back anything they do or say and I am embarrassed that kids these days are into it and am sad that kids these days are exposed to it. There is absolutely no substance whatsoever in their songs and no passion in anything they do. It is the musical equivalent of a snow cone, bland tasting frozen tap water loaded with sugar, yet colorful, that will give you a brain freeze, melt all over your hands leaving yourself dissatisfied and sticky. They seem like pretty harmless guys but if I don’t voice my opinion on what I think about Brokencyde then I have no right to ever speak up about any other injustices to the music scene in the future. There are only going to be more Brokencydes in the coming months with Millionaires, Breath Carolina and countless other mindless white suburban hip-hop “acts” popping up. I never thought Id say this but this new wave of horse shit makes me look back and not hate Atom and His Package because at least he was original. I know I am not going to change anything, there will still be 14 year old girls that like their colorful merch and there terrible club beats but if I can make one person at least question the authenticity and integrity of singing the words “let’s get freaky now, let’s get fucking freaky now” then I think it is well worth the effort.”

-Buddy from Senses Fail on his current tour mates BrokeNCYDE

I've been waiting for something like this to happen.
Here's to hoping this shitty trend ends soon.

Do your part to save the scene, stop listening to shitty music.

It's messed up

Out of every human emotion there is
Fear is the one that always fucks everything up.


I need a vacation, I wish it would of happened

What a pity that it is.

What a pity that it is
The way to come back home
I tried to make a point
To sell the last of what I own
Well I can feel your breeze
Begin to choke my living soul
But I promise that its worth it

What a pity that it is
To write you in a song
I tried to make the words
become a kingdom to your soul
No matter how I try
its just a lyric nothing more
And it cant be worth it

What a pity that it is
To know that you're alone
I tried to clean your place up
and make it feel like you were home
No matter how I tried,
still the house won't save you now
And I'm not really worth it

Dont Tread On Me

I found myself again.
I was at a punk rock show, right where I had left me.

March 9th, 2009

I've been anxious lately.
I think it's mostly to just get through this part of my life and move on to the next
Although I don't know what that is, or what that'll be.
I use to be so afraid of growing up, and about losing those close to me because of it.
Now that I finally have friends that, without any doubts, I know will still be there no matter what, I find myself happy about it. I'm excited to see what's in store and what opportunities I'll have and what I'll end up doing.
No matter what I keep falling back to music. I can't possibly see my self happy doing anything else.

A couple nights ago I kinda had an anxiety induced breakdown, took my mom's car (considering mine doesn't have a radio) and just drove. I ended up quite far from home, and lost. I got pulled over in some little town south of Louisville for speeding. Although the cop was really nice and I explained to him that I was lost and just really nervous because I couldn't find an open gas station and was running out of gas. He didn't give me a ticket or anything and ended up showing me the nearest open gas station where he joined me for a cup of coffee. He was a nice guy, I'm usually intimidated by police, but he reminded me that a cop is just another guy, working another job to make ends meet. It was nice of him, and I really appreciate it.
I finally got back home around 6 am. All in all, the open road was nice, almost relieving.

My mom is in the hospital again, which is why I was able to take her car in the first place. She's having the same surgery she has had in the past, the doctors messed up the first one and now she's suing for malpractice. She seems to get worse with each surgery. Hopefully this one will work out, I'm worried about her.

Anyways for something a bit more positive, I'm leaving for Florida Sunday night, after the Taste Of Chaos tour we're playing. I'm really stoked on it. It'll be a nice escape for awhile, because when I get back I'll have to crack down on this financial situation I've found myself in. It's nothing too bad, I just gotta get it fixed before I can move on. I've found it a lot less stressful if I just take everything in stride, not to get too many things mixed up and do way too much at once. After that I want to start college again, fuck I miss it. It's weird how it's been almost two years since I've been in high school and I feel smarter now and more prepared then when I first graduated, even after the two years of no school. I've always heard people say to go into college right after high school because you'll just end up losing interest in it and not go, with me it's the opposite.

Well I'm done rambling now.
I'm sure I'll post pictures and videos and random stories from Florida here.
It'll be a fun time.


later